I understand completely. Both my parents are pretty christian and I have to really control myself. We should talk sometime :)
It’s hard, isn’t it?! Especially being away at school for a while and coming back to it and having to remember to try to conform. =/ But yes, I agree, we should! =]
I recently just came to the conclusion that I am an atheist. And I’m not good at hiding things. What really bothers me though, is because I can’t tell my parents, my mom still makes me go to church. -__- I’m in the religious closet. I don’t think coming out of the closet is not just for gays and lesbians, its for those who don’t believe in god/religion too. We’re stuck in a religious closet that we can’t really come out of either.
Sorry I got kinda analytical there.
No, it’s all good. It’s actually really ironic that you said that, because just today I was thinking to myself, “wow. It is actually much harder for me to ‘come out’ to people as an atheist than it is to come out as a lesbian.” The judgment is harsher! I feel like a lot of people (like my family) think atheism is worse than homosexuality- which is saying a lot, considering they’re not a fan of that, either. Their comments just make me feel so bad about it, that I usually just don’t even bring it up and try to blend in with the majority and be “normal” (until the outbursts happen, haha.) It gets to be such a pain, internalizing everything and being stuck in the religious closet. Among friends and family, I just try to stay out of all conversations concerning religion. Awkward.
Sitting at a restaurant with your very Christian mom and her friends and when they start praying and you just sit quietly and look around and the waitress comes over with your food and you say “oh, that one’s mine!” while the others are still praying and the waitress stops and looks and you stop and are like “oh…” and then it’s just incredibly awkward for everyone.
(This happened tonight. I didn’t mean it. I never do these things on purpose. I need to work on my filter. I blame being off medication. But it’s rather funny now!)